IF I AM EVER THE BEING WHO SPEAKS LOFTY GOOD INTENTIONTED INTELLECTUAL COURAGEOUS WORDS AND IS ACTUALLY A HYPOCRITE BECAUSE I DO NOT UNDERSTAND MY OBLIGATION AS A HUMAN BEING TO HAVE THE COURAGE TO LIVE UP TO MY WORDS THAN IGNORE ME AND PASS BY BECAUSE MY LIGHT IS FALSE AND MY WORDS ARE EMPTY RYTHEM; MY EXISTANCE MARRED. IF WE ARE NOT MORE THAN OUR CIRCUMSTANCES, IF OUR INTEGRITY ONLY REMAINS INTACT WHEN NOT TRIED THAN WE ARE NOTHING MORE THAN A DEAD FISH FLOATING DOWN THE CURRENT. VICTORY DOES NOT OCCUR ALWAYS NOR IS IT EASY; BUT VICTORY CAN BE THE ONLY GOAL. THINGS DO MATTER AND NIHILISM WAS NEVER.

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mans search for meaning by viktor e. frankl